Do you know why I quit smoke ? Because I want to live longer. Why ? I feel that life starts after 40.
At 6:40 am early morning on 4th February 1981 I had the first cry but then was cuddled by my mom, taught me how to feel, taught me how to eat, taught me to say ma, taught me to laugh, the warmheartedness begins and taught me the love. Then the usual ritual starts, go to kinder garden - playing toys with joys, sub-junior schools - running wild and free and making friends, high school - posing around and making more friends and girl friends and intoxicating and day-dreaming, colleges days - further maturing those high school feelings with a sense of making effort to reach those dreams to be a face in the crowd, corporate life - learned the definition of commitment, ethics, working day and night and hanging out at weekends to the extreme, making money, roaming the world, promotions and life goes on.
Isn't it so natural.It would have been natural,had been the case if there were no dark side, the greed, the jealousy, the competitiveness, the fights. Humans are complex and they become more and more complex to make themselves simple.Learning is not only everywhere its in every moment too.
Now I am passing time to make myself simple by learning, talking an advantage from the fact that "Life teaches you everything". Now I am working, earning money to stand a family, looking for a girl to be my wife, roaming the world seeing what it is, waiting for appraisal for a leap in status, reading and writing exams for personal status, making more friends and maturing old friends, caring my parent and brothers and sisters, listening songs and learning them because it makes me happy, feels depress when the thought of the lost love surrounds, loosing control and laughing out loud like no tomorrow, exercising to make myself fit - the physical aspect, aligning to wisdom sensually and practically - the mental aspect, engross in some deep simple primitive thoughts and feelings - the spiritual aspect.
And I am really passing time until I am 40 to know what lies beyond, when I am truly simple. Dear God, I am so afraid, give me the strength to simplify myself.
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